Trauma Drama from Demo by Zingers

Anger's seething
Where will this go
Heart beats so fast
She's gonna blow
All logic’s leaving
There goes the peace
Amygdala highjack
A rage that won't cease

Why can't I let it go?
I don't even know

I come with baggage
From a traumatic life
You don't abuse me
Cuts like a knife
When I say in anger
You're all the same
I've lost control
Misplaced blame

It's a god damned mess in here
I wish you'd stand clear

I don't want to fight with you
Then say those mean things to you
Don’t care the damage they do
Won't stop to let you get through
Something's taken over my brain
It's wreaking havoc between us again
Why are you the spark to my flame
Makes me insane

So many triggers
I can't keep count
Keep pushing you away
Abandonment recount
Convinced I've done it
I've proved you'll leave
Just being pre-emptive
So I won't grieve

Why can't I let it be?
Just trust you love me

I get intense
And cause drama too much
A learned behaviour
My emotional crutch
Wish I didn't struggle
To know now from then
The problem is my abusers
Almost all were men

I hope you understand
The things I've had to withstand

I don't want to be afraid of you
Why does safety feel so taboo
Can't believe your words are true
You want to help me work through
All these fucked up thoughts in my head
Always telling me everything's dead
Keeps me living with fear and dread
Of what's ahead

Don't know the answers
But I'll do anything
To heal the wounds that haunt me
And give you everything
You deserve from this friendship
Heal what trauma damaged
Change neuropathways
Where it hurts you'll bandage

It's a complex pathology
My psychology

Always feel alone
Problems with attachment
Hiding feeling away
Protection is detachment
You always help me
Through my dark abyss
From you I've learned
True friends exist

I hope it's plain to see
You mean everything to me

I hope you never forget
How much I needed you when we met
And to loose you, I'd always regret
Because you haven't seen the best of me yet
You can always count on me
To love you like family
And I hope to forever be
Your hayati

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