Myself by The Defiance Campaign

i don't like checking the mail
cause nothing good ever comes
just envelopes i don't wanna open up
are they gonna cut my health insurance off?
oh no!
all i know
is i wish one day i could
open that mailbox
and mail myself away
to a far and distant place
somewhere in outer space
away from the debt collectors
and the bills i cannot pay
all the unknown numbers
i'm too paranoid to answer
the money i pay every day
just to give myself some cancer
but then i remember that i don't wanna be alone
so i just shrug my shoulders
and stare into my phone

i don't like being a male
and being female doesn't fit
i don't feel anything but myself
and that is it!
oh i know
i am beautiful
but i'm dirty and i spit
in the face of tradition
i am no one but myself
i don't owe anybody shit!

all i know
is i want to go
to the middle of the forest
and dig a giant hole
jump inside and cover me up
with dirt and watch me grow
roots emerge from my eyeballs
from my fingers to my toes
condemn my body to the ground
more alive than i was before!
but then
i remember that i don't wanna be alone
so i just shrug my shoulders
and stare into my phone

unemployment got delayed
and someone's blowing up my phone
you can leave a message
at the sound of the tone!
i won't listen
what's your mission?
collect your gold, then deny what's owed
and when i'm dead you can sell my bones?

i feel like i am
at the end of my rope
always on the verge of breaking down
letting my tears flow
like a river
like a river
and it makes its way out to the drain
never to be seen again

suck it up
little buttercup
i've always heard that boys don't cry
so i guess i am not one

go away
to a strange and distant place
somewhere without a name
away from the debt collectors
and the bills i'll never pay
away from all the spying eyes
i'll leave without a trace
but then
i remember that i'm already alone
so i just wipe my tears away and stare into my phone

• Acoustic
• Folk
• Punk
• anarchofolk
• folk punk
• Michigan