Used To from Beach Episode by Sherry CD-ROM

lyrics:

You get worn down
And everyone tells you so
In your face, new lines shine
In the afterglow

You're getting tired of this
I know you are

I'm lying flat on my back
In front of the air conditioner
Blades of grass edging their way
Through the carpet fuzz

I don't have a clue what that part of me
Even wants

Used to
Play the whole show
Without breaking a sweat
Used to
Play the whole show
Without breaking a sweat
Used to
Play the whole show
Without breaking a sweat

Everywhere that I go, I can feel me
I'm holding on like a beacon
I don't feel the way that I used to
I'm a sorry substitute, sorry
Time tears across like a cold wind
Through a field of winter irises
I atone how I think I must
I am learning how to trust

I used to be so ashamed
And I am not free from shame
But I am close

Everyone here in this basement is a falling star
Not just me
Arriving here as if by fate
Staying out of obligation

How many years has it been?
I don't know

Hordes of people washed up on a beach
Holding my cassette tapes
Like a child that has thrown up in a bed,
I'm ashamed of what I've made
And no one's gonna clean up my mess

Used to wait til it's over and cringe through the pain
Used to be so obsessed with always taking the blame
Used to want so badly to be a bad person
So I wouldn't feel bad when I'd say
That I didn't deserve to be happy or here
That my art was disgusting
I was living in fear
I'm not afraid at this point
Feel free to hate me if you want
I'm not ambivalent

Why don't we go and do something fun?

Everywhere that I go, I can feel me
I'm holding on like a beacon
I don't feel the way that I used to
I'm a sorry substitute, sorry
Time tears across like a cold wind
Through a field of winter irises
I atone how I think I must
I am learning how to trust

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