Pastel from Electrician by Ponyboy

For all the pastel colors
I used to drown in
I just see red now
I’ve hurt myself somehow
When Kenzie tries to come in
I got the blanket coverin’
Keepin’ the light out
My head’s grown so loud

What if I’m stuck down here
What if I’m this angry forever
What if I just see him
When I’m panting over my shoulder

A necklace of your ashes
On your built in crisis actress
I’m just like you now
Fucked up and spun out
The unrelenting waves of
Impotence and shame
Oh, I’m just like you there
If a bit more self-aware

What if I’m full of shit
What if I’m this angry forever
What if I can’t get clear
End up missing my own path forward

What if I just see red now?
As I’ve tried to comprehend
The shape of your shortcomings
It all dawned on me, and I have seen
The time for recompense is over

What if I just see red now?
And from my own rusty cage
I’m left to wonder
If you’re looking down on me, and finally seeing
Your second son no longer shining

What if I just see red now?

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