Paprika from Paprika by Ohio Martinez

Paprika in the morning
sunsets tend to be important
if they're boring that's on you
because you're dead inside I'm sorry

But the fried eggs are alluring
and my coffee needs some stirring
and the sugar's kinda burning
and the water's boiling over

All over my new socks
my toes are frying
I'm not lying
I'll start finding everything I need
to forget that I'm dying

I'm trying
I'm trying my best
I'm trying to be kind
but every time I find myself
so angry that I'm losing my mind

Am I the only one who wants it better
the irony of being alive
when I feel deader than dead

Am I the only one whose jaw is getting tighter
every single day there is a forest fire right in my head
if I'm not who I say I am,
then who am I?

Chewing on my cuticles
it's lower than low
I've started an addiction to imposter syndrome
I don't know

For the reason why I'm so quick
to identify as hollow
when I wallow in my sorrow that I
can barely swallow

The truth is that I'm lying all the time
it's not a crime but it is
kinda depressing to find myself inclined

Toward crafting personalities
not facing my reality
it's just a tiny part of me
the fantasy of ecstasy

Am I the only one who wants it better
the irony of being alive
when I feel deader than dead

Am I the only one whose jaw is getting tighter
every single day there is a hurricane right in my head

If I'm not who I say I am,
the question is,
If I'm not happy where I am,
the question is,
If I'm not who I want to be,
then who am I?

• Alternative
• Rock
• indie pop
• indie rock
• East Brunswick