MB29 - Temperance by Morbid Beauty

Made between January 29th & February 3rd 2022 for Imploding Sounds. Massive thanks to Tim for asking and inspiring this album.

A harsh / chaotic / wall / drill noise concept album about drink / drug addiction, mental health issues, getting sober and the journey to follow...

I'm not using Morbid Beauty as a vehicle to tell all my stories too regularly, but sometimes the intense purging of the sound can be amplified by the story that goes with it, so it felt necessary on this occasion once the concept was in place for this specific release.

Since January 2021 I've been sober, after the most part of 3 decades of drink (and drugs at times) dependencies. I won't go too far into the stories, but it's safe to say I was an alcoholic, fuelled by severe depression, anxiety, self-hatred and self-destructive tendencies.
It was killing me, and I was letting it.

It's only in the last few years that I decided I wanted to live for as long as possible, and 'getting clean' has been a major part of what I had to change in life to stick around!

What started as a 'let's do 3 months sober' on a New Year's Day turned into continuing and now 14 months in, I know I will never drink alcohol again. I can't, I shouldn't and I actively don't want to anymore.

Tracklist

1.	Emergency Head Scraping	12:47

2.	Toxic Death Clouds	8:36

3.	Electrical Storms Clear The Air	11:11

4.	Resignation Precedes Resilience	21:57

Credits

released February 12, 2022

This album is my statement and reminder that things are much better without drink, even though I had tons of fun times and adventures and some crazy stories because of it, and honestly, there were times when I was at my lowest due to situational and chemical stuff in my brain that drinking genuinely kept me alive. It was the pause button I needed until I was strong enough to figure out how to fix everything else, and once other things were in a much better place, only then could I tackle the drinking addiction!

So, I AM thankful, but now, my relationship with alcohol is completely over. I have much more productive and amazing things to do, see, be involved with, and to give my time, energy, money and focus to.

Yeah, mornings are still really difficult, because I've always been a night owl(!) ever since I was a kid, but my recovery and energy to get started with the day comes along far quicker than it has done my entire life.

After 30+ years of drinking, and at least 20 years of that to extremely major excess, it was time to change the patterns and not rely on it anymore. It's been incredibly difficult, and actually physically painful at times to get to the place I am now, but, absolutely worth it in the end.

If you struggle with addiction (as well as any mental health issues), know that there are people out there who understand where you are, and know it's always possible to get in control of it, even when it feels completely like it isn't. Always shout for help if you need it; and to recognise you need it is a massive and strong step towards fixing it.

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The album is also here, as IS #652
implodingsounds.bandcamp.com/album/temperance
www.instagram.com/implodingsounds

Album on YouTube: www.youtube.com/watch?v=gH6dUdXH6ks

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Up to date Bandcamp codes here:
dlcm.app/morbid-beauty/mb29-temperance

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