nvm :) from system crash by @melissageurts

you know better
you know better
you know better
you— you—
still here?

feel bad
feel bad
feel bad about
feeling bad again

system crash
body moves
brain won’t catch
apologize
mid-thought
shut up shut up shut up

I said I’d stop
then I said it again
then I ran again
soft reset
no regrets
(well maybe some)

this is the part
where I know what to do
and still don’t
still ghost
still fold

in the loop
in the loop
mirror me
error me
still not gentle
still not soft
still not—

know better
know better
know better
than this

then why
am I
still here
still here
still here?

—

flinch
pause
scroll
spiral
breathe
post
delete
spiral

—

you know better
but your hands don’t wait
you know better
but your voice won't stay

you know better
but the mirror won’t lie
you know better
but your nervous system says
run

—

this is the loop
this is the work
this is the part
where I disappear

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