Suddenly from Suddenly by Math Club

Can i be honest for once? I can't settle down.
I've been having these dreams where I've been driving around
I keep finding my way back to the wrong side of town.
I'm asleep at the wheel and I wake to a terrible sound.
Well it's thunder, or it's lightning, or it's metal in my mouth.
I am violently shaken. I'm alone on the couch.

Can I be honest for once? This is all a little strange.
Friends say I should be mourning. I'm just spending my days
growing closer to nature. Growing lines on my face.
Spending delicate hours in a post-familial space.
I've abandoned any sense of being settled at the roots.
It's a dizzying forward motion I am settled into.
I am anxious and I'm sick. I am in love with the view.
I am very much on fire. There is something left to do.

Suddenly everything's clear.
Suddenly I am not alone.
As suddenly as everything changed,
suddenly I am home.
Suddenly this is normal,
just normal with a different tone.
Suddenly I have everything I need in what I own.

Can I be honest for once?
I'm a mess now. Though I am everything I thought I would be when i was small
I'm surrounded by musicians. I am nearly six feet tall.
I was not much of a dreamer. I believe that might be all.
I am kind to the right kind of people. I don't expect much in return.
I do not yet believe that we are inherently good, but I sure am willing to learn.

Can I be honest for once?
I do not quite feel myself.
I am still inside that dream, I think, or at least I'm somewhere else.
I am lost without my people. It's an isolated Hell.
For a well-adjusted man, I'm not adjusting very well.
but what do I have to complain for? I'm a child throwing fits.
I have everything I need. I'm a picky piece of shit.
Box my ears until I'm gentle. Show no mercy. Do not quit.
Break me down. Make me see. This is goodness. This is it.


Suddenly everyone's here.
Suddenly I am not alone.
Suddenly good friends I thought were lost to me are calling on the phone.
Suddenly this is heaven, or as close as I've ever known.
Suddenly I am here, and I am home.

• Alternative
• emo
• indie
• post-rock
• rock
• Hamilton