MY WILL from SWAN SONGS by DJ KROOKED & ODDITY ODYSSEY

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11.	MY WILL	4:42

Lyrics

only time i ever matter
when i'm swinging from the rope
weak thoughts, i’m terrified of whats after
evidently i lost hope
living is such a chore
unhealthy ways to cope
what do you think the dope’s for?
mental battle, neurons at war
i’m a natural disaster
save me, i look past her
leave faster than the moment i blast in her
why? i was afraid of attachment
i was afraid of intimacy
the only time i feel legitimacy
is when i achieve full detachment
whatever, i’m through
my dna might have been a clue
that i would have some screws loose
wished that they’d be proud of me
but i pay the fee with my bpd
shit, bipolar and adhd too
numb it all with blues
if only you could see it from my view
the problems continue to accrue
save for a few i cannot trust any of you
like one after another
i feel the fear hover
i lost my will to suffer

doubtful that i’ll recover
each moment is rougher
each situation is tougher
each drug smothers
gives the warmth of lovers
press the red buzzer
stuck in time with a buffer
i lost my will to suffer

i stand before you,
bare soul, bruised heart,
a battlefield between love and loathing,
a tug-of-war of who i am
and who i pretend to be
i have sat at the table of self hatred,
dined on doubt, sipped on sorrow,
called myself ugly names,
chiseled away at my own reflection
until i was nothing but a ghost in the mirror
but even the darkest night must bow to the dawn

doubtful that i’ll recover
each moment is rougher
each situation is tougher
each drug smothers
gives the warmth of lovers
press the red buzzer
stuck in time with a buffer
i lost my will to suffer

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from SWAN SONGS, released August 1, 2025

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