2.3 Different from December, 2015 by Jessica in The Rainbow

Here in this place that I choose to
settle down with you or with myself
it doesn’t matter this time
cause here in this space that I breathe
I am certain of me
and you’re nice and you’re kind

But there won’t be some kind of overriding fiction in my brain
that tells me to stay here
if you treat me like a slave or you treat me in a way
that feels like it isn’t right
not just for a day but for a life

Cause I am learning the difference
I hope you can see that in my smile
I hope you can believe that when I say it’s different now
that I’m not filling your head with lies

It’s no surprise that my life is so different now
It’s no surprise that my life must be different
It’s no surprise that you make me different
Cause the people we’re around make us different
All these people who have found me made me different
All the ways that you find me make me different
And all the ways I’m alone make me different
And all the people who have shaped me made me different
Not just in the one way, they made me different
Different to myself, different to who I was born to be
Maybe I was born to be like this and I was on a crazy tangent
All that insanity that they gave me with their unconventional wisdom
With their horrific and ungodly wisdom
And I learned
We all learn

We all learn

I’m so afraid to stop learning
the things that make me feel like I’m alive
Don’t wanna throw a dart at a map
at one point of light

When there’s everywhere
When there’s light in your hair
When there’s light in my eyes
When there’s light over there
When there’s light in a surprise
When there’s tears in the smiles
When there’s smiles in the tears
Year after year after year after year

I wanna be different
Different from who I’ve been

• Alternative
• bedroom pop
• dream folk
• freak folk
• piano
• singer-songwriter
• Michigan