greenhouse (acoustic) from bridges & ashes by Jai Mohan

lotus, yarrow
one day i'll go where they all go
over the bridge, through the gates
everyone's gotta die someday

perfume, poison
do the dead know that i hear their voices?
mugwort, mandrake
i won't join the dead today

but i want to, i want it bad
i want to die whenever i get sad
i want it, it's not like i should
i bet when i die it'll feel so good

belladonna
i don't do it, even when i wanna
turn my mind off
let my heart stop

i stay right here
wrap my arms tight around my fear
sit with my grief and give it a hug
grief is the product of aimless love

i grieve people i'll never know
this cycle was set into place long ago
calendula and aloe
would that i could heal it and let it grow

lily, violet
i hear it in the quiet
spearmint, catnip
honesty falls out of fashion

psilocybin
i sing it even in silence
amanita
i sing when i wake to greet ya

ah,

lotus, yarrow
one day i'll go where they all go
over the bridge, through the gates
everyone's gotta die someday

• Alternative
• classical crossover
• indie pop
• queer
• singer-songwriter
• vocal
• New York