Balance by Irene Wilde

woke up in a quiet way, just listening.
to the world around come alive oh once again
and i know that eternal recurrence.
oh how my mind begins and ends in all of its moments.
and i wonder if my will is bound to them?
why even try if i will have to know
all the bad yet again?

so i go down to the river and i implore him
down on my knees!
just change a thread in my pattern.
oh blessed be i try and try
just to fall again.
but if you can't change fate
just change me instead
just change me instead.

for i feel everything, oh everything and i
Am terrified!

oh down by the river i get angry.
of all the things i've done to not feel
am i where the eye cannot see?
and i'm so frightened by my wickedness
and the hate in me!
oh to survive so many things
just to fall in muck up to my knees
and i cry for i'm afraid
cuz i can't make this feeling go away
away
away

So i throw my hands up!
and i yell at my lord!
"Why did you burden me with this feeling for?"
for i feel everything.
the good and bad in me.
and i fear which way my soul is leaning towards.
but then i hear
a quiet whisper still
"I am because i feel."

So i throw up my hands once more
maybe this burden is just my very soul.
and of all my challenges.
to keep my art alive and never learn to fear myself.
and life is uncertain
but no matter the way i find it
i must find faith in myself
and i can't prevent the pain
but this recurrence states the good in life too
shall always remain.

and i will know it again someday!

and then i hear a quiet whisper still,
"I am because I feel."

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