Design from Catharsis by Hdot Bdot

1. I hope for healing hope that god takes my soul and mends it
2. Use my flaws to bestow some wisdom
3. Yea That same year we heard of Kobe’s ending
4. Dorothy was another covid victim lifted to the solar system
5. couldn’t see it comin when it hit I couldn’t even stomach
6. Chaotic last days being forced on this peaceful woman
7. Before the isolation protocol
8. Had opportunities to visit but I’d blow em Off so I’m scarred
9. feels like i gave up something that was snatched away
10. A lesson taught to those of us that might procrastinate
11. It’s taken all of my humility to share my grief
12. Tomorrow’s not a probability or guarantee
13. That’s a scary thing to know that apparently
14. We avoid the inevitable because of the fear it brings
15. Life’s precious and If she could hear me speak,
16. Her death made it crystal clear to me, please rest in peace

Am I Dying for truth or just living in a lie/Born of sin or in an image of a God/This is the facade that I’ve witnessed with my eyes/But ignored cuz I’m intertwined in this new design/Just when i think I’ve reached the end of the decline/A new low rekindles that mirage/The images inside my head had me believing in a lie/That stars would conveniently align, this is by design

1. Isolation is the demon seed
2. that seems brings peace to me and in secrecy
3. I question how i could have been led astray
4. Rather than meditate i self medicate
5. Food and liquor minus Lupe on this excursion
6. Not even music can fix the hurting
7. I try to erase the Ls and forget the learnings
8. Instead i just raise hell and sit in my burdens
9. When i scribble in journals Im a different version
10. of myself a more brilliant person with a vivid purpose
11. Some get it misconstrued way i tend to flip my view
12. Of trauma Use a time that’s difficult as a muse to get me thru
13. As honest as i dare to be
14. I look for chaos to channel my talents and thats still like a breath of fresh air to me
15. But through therapy I’ve learned to tread carefully
16. Through the smoke until everything becomes clear to me

Am I Dying for truth or just living in a lie/Born of sin or in an image of a God/This is the facade that I’ve witnessed with my eyes/But ignored cuz I’m intertwined in this new design/Just when i think I’ve reached the end of the decline/A new low rekindles that mirage/The images inside my head had me believing in a lie/That stars would conveniently align, this is by design

1. I know that I’m talented but a known loner
2. This Something you dont just grow over
3. This cold shoulder has calcified into bitter stone
4. And now I’m finding solace inside of my crib alone
5. Past situations I left with casualties
6. Of war i’d enter relationships with exit strategies
7. Waiting for the day that I’d be met with tragedies
8. Looking for the truth I’m only left with fallacies
9. That was a reality I built of my own conviction
10. On a foundation of unknown conditions
11. But If you hold to listen you’ll notice my only mission
12. Is to address my own decisions and elicit my own forgiveness
13. I was unaware of things that i was too scared to see
14. Tunnel-visioned when placed in settings I aint care to be
15. Spent years confronting the reflection that stared at me
16. Until the fog passed and it was clear to me

That I’m Dying for the truth AND living in a lie/Born of sin AND in an image of a God/This is the facade that I’ve witnessed with my eyes/But ignored cuz I’m intertwined in this new design/Just when i think I’ve reached the end of the decline/A new low rekindles that mirage/The images inside my head had me believing in a lie/That stars would conveniently align, this is by design

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