Reality Check from Live by Hacienda Gardeners

For years I survived under disguise
Living life trying to hide out of their sight
They can't see all the pain I feel
They don't want me to be real

It's scary when the truth is revealed
It's easier to be fake and concealed
I've been in danger for years
So much fear
Spreading hatred and lies
They're insecure

Surrounded by people who are insincere
Living in chaos and crying endless tears
Wish I could leave but right now I'm stuck
I'm in a rut and all the doors are shut

They said I'm just not good enough
That I'll never amount to much
Suffering everyday to my dismay
Feels like I'm going insane
There's no escape
They threw it all away
There's nothing I can say
They keep on throwing shade
Their love's in vain
And I'm so afraid
Just want to get away

Wasted so many years
No one cared
Hated myself
I didn't want to look in the mirror
Couldn't go outside without being shunned and lied about
And life's no fun
I can't live my life without the pain and strife
It cuts me like a knife
It hurts me everytime
So depressed
I'm sick of being oppressed

• Alternative
• visual rock
• California