babushka from s'ok by Goldenrod

open me up for surgery and you will find a bigger me
she's 40% more vocal and she exists with no ceiling
but i keep her locked inside because of something like pride
i guess she's my little nesting doll i keep trapped in my stomach
walls

little punk kids yellin' at me from the back of the bus, they got out early
the verdict is in and i'm guilty of prolonged love, i wish i got out earlier

my friends are all moving forward and i'm stuck on my back
i know you're not moving forward, i know that you're still sad
it's what you deserve
it's what you deserve
it's what

somewhere there's a bug stuck on its back and i'm not there to flip it over
sometimes i'm a bug stuck on my back and you're not here to flip me over
it's a simple observation, but it stops me in my tracks
there's no good or bad person, it's not that white or black
(except you and me)

my friends are all moving forward, and i'm stuck on my back
i know you're not moving forward, i know that you're still sad
and you'll know where to find me, 'cause i'm always looking back
at you, and it's haunting, but i like feeling sad
it's what i deserve
it's what i deserve
it's what

and if i draw meaning from this, it's that nothing exists
seven years of therapy, and still, you persist

so i take out my nesting doll
i start to walk instead of crawl
i won't let no one make me small
i'm short, but i feel ten feel tall

i want to cross the border freely
i want to appear unappealing
i want to exist with no ceiling
i want only god to see me

my friends are all moving forward and i'm stuck on my back
i know you're not moving forward, i know that you're still sad
and i still watch you on your phone, i still watch you all alone
i know you're still sad, and that makes me glad
it's what you deserve
it's what you deserve
it's what

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