wip6 from Nostalgia by Dusty's My Friend

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11.	wip6	4:41

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well the honest truth
is i’m so over writing about you
‘cause there’s already two songs
about the pain, about the loss
and there’s a third written in your name
back from when i thought love was pain
i’m so over all this bull
it’s really getting just so dull
but i write what i’m feeling
and i still feel for you
don’t know what that means
don’t know what i’m ‘posed to do

a lot of people
can say thanks for the lesson
but i’m too angry
from what i’ve been missing
and even now
that you’re gone
i still can’t live
the way i want

it’s been off and on for
nearly three years oh lord
you made me feel that
my future was full of hurt
and you ruined
what was left of my childhood
i have a good reason to
say you ruined what was good

but i
cannot lie
and say that
you’re all to blame
for perspective
and learning lessons
comes from the learner
you’re not a teacher

so i’ll stop
moping around
i’ll pick myself up
off the ground
i know that it’s not
going to improve
if i don’t pretend
i have nothing to lose
so what’s gonna happen
is i’m going to laugh and
it’s not going to be fake
i’ll try not to shake

because tho
my feelings are valid
these behaviors
are not okay
and even tho
i’ve tried to stop it
these thoughts just don’t
go away

niglazzio
says to let them go
don’t judge your thoughts
she’d say
sometimes you just
can’t have control
and that’s
also okay

sorry for
the fast talk
i have a lot
on my mind
i guess the message
here is
i’m sick of wanting
u to be mine
but these thoughts
aren’t going anywhere
unless i am going
to make them disappear
but i can’t do that either
as i am not what i think
so i’ll just roll with it
and let cognitive behavioral do it’s thing

i’m still angry
i want to be alright
but what you did to me
kept me up for so many nights

it’s not okay
but when there’s blame
and one to plead guilty
where do we place the pain
i’m assuming the innocent
‘cause that is my name
but you’ll make me think otherwise
so i’ll stay low and hop on a train
a train of thought that
takes me happy places
a train of thought that
of you there are no traces
i won’t be racing
i’ll be laughing and searching for
light for a bulletin
board
screams that sound like ukulele chords

so i guess i’ll move on
i guess this is the last song
i write about my feelings
but if i don’t write anymore
i can focus instead on
mowing my mindful lawn
being in the moment
instead of chasing you through
sad songs

so this is the last song
it’s time for you to be gone
you don’t know who you are
and if you do you know
you’ve left some scars
but i’ll by the ointment
i’ll apply it to my skin
i’ll succeed to forget
but i won’t let you back again

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from Nostalgia, released December 27, 2019

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