i am...? from identity by Chibiitaii

I wear this name like it's something real, but I’m fading in between
Thank you for the cheers you give, but I can’t shake the feeling unseen
It’s like I’m here, but not quite there—
Just a tiny figure lost in the air
Though you’ve carried me so far, I’m still sinking in the dark

I smile and wave, pretending I'm okay, but am I really there?
I stand on a stage built for me, but still feel like I’m nowhere
You all shout my name like it holds so much
But inside, I can’t even feel the touch
Of the light, or the praise—
Just a shadow in this space

Can I really be enough?
Hanging by this fragile thread
In the noise, I’m screaming soft
Buried under all this dread
I know you’re here, it’s plain to see
It’s not your fault, it's always me
Trying hard to believe
Am I anyone, truly?
I wonder if this will change
In the end, I’m still the same

I’m grateful for the love you send
But I can’t stop feeling like I’ll break again
Your voices lift me up, I know you’re near
Yet why does it still feel like I’m not here?
I’m a nobody in my own skin
But you keep pulling me in
I want to be more than just a name
But maybe I’m too small to ever change

I look back on all the moments I’ve shared, and still can’t quite believe
All the smiles, the love, the care you’ve shown—it’s hard to even grieve
For the girl who still feels out of place
In a sea of hearts that know her face
I owe it all to you, but somehow still feel hollow too

I’m grateful for the love you send
But I can’t stop feeling like I’ll break again
Your voices lift me up, I know you’re near
Yet why does it still feel like I’m not here?
I’m a nobody in my own skin
But you keep pulling me in
I want to be more than just a name
But maybe I’m too small to ever change

I wear this name like it’s something real, though I’m fading in between
You’ve lifted me high, higher than I’ve ever been
But no matter how far I climb,
It feels like I’m just running out of time
Thank you for everything—I’m trying to be enough
Even when it’s hard to see, I’m grateful for your love

• Alternative
• Shibuya-kei
• electroswing
• gothic pop
• hip-hop
• picopop