dole (demo) by skymning

managed a couple years
in the working classes
before it kicked my arse
and now i'm back to where i started
bludging off the dole
i'm a useless thieving bastard
i swear i never win
even when i try my hardest
a few years at the farthest point from
anyone i know
it's flow by fast as fuck i know
i should have harnessed what i wrote
down at the start
but i can't
push the clock hands backwards
can't forget about the past
i just wait till after dark
and in the quiet
my mind settles down at last

i managed my whole adult life on
tramadol and codeine
and now i'm sat here sober hoping
as the years go i can
cope a bit more easily
life's never been a breeze for me
if i stop when you see me
just pretend you haven't seen me
i'll be back tomorrow evening
i'll be back before you know it
show you all the plants i'm growing
talk about the seeds i'm sowing
and the harvest that i'm hoping for
i'm back to settle all the scores
i'm backing me and mine not yours
and that's something worth fighting for

managed a little label for a couple years
and failed all my friends
i wasn't able to pretend
i had the slightest clue bout anything
i'll never own a wedding ring
i'll never know about parenting
invalid it's embarrassing

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