RUINESS from UNKILLABLE ANGEL by Ada Rook
Tracklist
| 5. | RUINESS | 2:40 |
Lyrics
everything is so embarrassing still
critical interior pressure builds
caught looking thru the crack in the door
so bright, so destructive
i want it
wish i couldve figured it out
before i grew up enough to dodge the question
wish i couldve given it all i had
and crashed and burned or been anything
better than another name
fading into radiation
i dont wanna be known i just wanna be seen
let me go drop me let me be free
im falling in between everything dear to me
it never ends
where the fuck do i belong
and why can i never commit to it?
is this all there is?
why can't i need anything
without it always being forbidden?
i learned to be afraid of myself
now im always on the edge
always looking in
the bleak truth remains
it never goes away
stupid fucking puppets haven't u heard?
whatever u think of me it's worse
i dont have anywhere to turn and i like it
just wish i could still trust myself
nobody can ever return
true contact once it occurs
avoid the eyes and never try to look back
ive complicated so much shit
in my cowardice
when all that i wanted
was just for someone to see me
but that is not who i am anymore
i can see her behind me
no life in her eyes
i pull myself again to my feet
i cannot ever let go
ill act my age and fucking fade away
and give up all control
and never show anything
i wish someone would tell me
all my hidden parts will become known
threat or comfort, i dont care
as long as i can have the hope
that im not alone
