Mum's Song from Love by Abel Do
Tracklist
| 10. | Mum's Song | 4:53 |
Lyrics
Was this what it felt like when you and dad split
To wake up every morning, too tired to give a shit
You guys went the distance for twenty years and more
I only had six and it rocked my core
You had four kids, a house, a life written in blood
There was so much more to the depths of your love
For a long time I was angry at the way you behaved
But how did you do it, without asking to be saved
I wasn't there for you like I should've been
Fourteen, drunk, already a has been
Not yet a man, but I still had a heart
To give to the one that had fallen apart
I wasn't there for you like I should've been
Fourteen, drunk, already a has been
Too involved with myself and too angry to care
That you were running out of air
You still woke up every morning, and put on a face
Don't know what it was, but I'm sure it looked brave
You did what you did, and I couldn’t tell the difference
From your looks of pain, anger and sadness
So I'm sorry if I was a little bit confused
I know I look like him, but I'm also you
I didn't choose to put on this face that you
Thought was a life that you would lose
I wasn't there for you like I should've been
Fourteen, drunk, already a has been
Not yet a man, but I still had a heart
To give to the one that had fallen apart
I wasn't there for you like I should've been
Fourteen, drunk, already a has been
Too involved with myself and too angry to care
That you were running out of air
I can see that you felt like you were losing control
So you dug in your fingers, just to get a hold
Of the threads of your life that was slipping away
Four kids and a marriage made out of clay
But the more you dug in, the more I clawed out
Everything I did, you would always shout
I see now that it was the only thing you could do
To show to the world that you weren't a fool
I wasn't there for you like I should've been
Fourteen, drunk, already a has been
Not yet a man, but I still had a heart
To give to the one that had fallen apart
I wasn't there for you like I should've been
Fourteen, drunk, already a has been
Too involved with myself and too angry to care
That you were running out of air
So we sit on either side of the room
And although we don’t talk, I know more of you
You had so much strength, more than I knew
I'm sorry I didn't want to tell you
But she filled me with so much shame that I
Was afraid to look you, square in the eye
But when I did I saw you already knew
All the things that I'd gone through
You were there for me like you always been
Even now, with the mess I'm in
Already a man, but I'd worn out my heart
Loving someone that had torn it apart
You were there for me like you always been
Even now, with the mess I'm in
If I could go back and I'd tell myself
To be a little easy and give some help
You were there for me like you've always been
Even now, with the mess I'm in
But I can't go back, I'm stuck right here
So I'll do what I can to live with those years
